Fear of Hospitals: The Waiting, Tests, Uncertainty, The Bills
Honest Detailed Post:
Yesterday, I went into the Emergency Room due to painful urination and inability to completely empty my bladder after speaking with a nurse at my primary doctors office since he is unavailable till October.
A urinalysis, bloodwork, a CT Scan and a dozen questions later, all they found was a cyst less than 5cm on my ovary which is not the cause of my urinary issues. No UTI or any abnormalities were found. The issues on my pee/bladder were ‘undetermined ‘ and I need to follow up with a urologist as soon as possible. Trouble is, they are all booked till September or October.
I’m really bummed I have broken my streak of exercise, but my body just can’t today. I was at that ER from 5:45pm last night and didnt get home till 6:30am today. The drink they give you has a nasty, foul tasting contrast which has a laxative effect, definitely unclogged the pipes, forcing me to run to the loo to release the Kraken numerous times.
I can still taste the contrast today and am doing my best to drink more water to pee it out but my poor intestines are inflamed and offended from that evil drink.
I am still worried. Are my kidneys okay? my flank hurts, but is it the contrast drink i had that has given me the runs up until early this evening? Am I going to be okay? Can I work out tomorrow at least a little? How much is this going to cost? I already have the $500 copay notification… What about the tests?
I know we all go through things in life but wow….
I dont even know if I’ll have to go back to the ER today based on the pains I’m feeling. I’m scared and worried but there is only soo much i can control. I’m hoping a good night’s sleep can help and that tomorrow I feel better and can find a good doctor that’s available next week. I am just eternally grateful to my mom and brother who were there the entire time and to those via text who listened and sent their love. Means a lot.
Until tomorrow.
Mind Body Synergylia 