I first started a blog again to document my journey back to health, back to being physically fit and get ready to don the attire to dress as WWE’s Chelsea Green. As you know, I was doing well and a lot of things came up which brough my workouts to halt. Hypertonic pelvic floor muscles, then hip impingement when starting physical therapy, then intense calf pain that I thought was deep vein thrombosis but fortunately it wasn’t. Intense dizziness that lasted 24/7 for a few weeks, and severe weakness in my arms, and legs that sometimes felt like jello, rendering me unable to walk more than 3 blocks without feeling like I was going to collapse.
After weeks of trying to figure out what was going on when test after test came back negative, and my primary doctor suggesting it was mental, I did figure out that yes, my breathing was erratic, which were leading to anxiety attacks that were making me feel worse. But I also figured out that I hadn’t taken the prescribed D2 pills the doctor gave me due to my levels being a few points below the normal low. And while he didn’t think that was the cause of my issues, I believe they were partly and started taking supplements of D3 (3000 IU’s) and noticed the pain in my calves begin to disappear. I also know now that my body is in the state of deconditioning which is when your muscles start to waste way due to a year of inactivity (sitting to work, barely going outside or getting up to walk) I also went back to what I thought was another reason for the heaviness in my neck and dizziness and that was bad pillows. I threw the old one I had and got a new one, felt great the next day, but then afterward had heaviness in my arms, fingers, head and legs again. So I purchase 3 more pillows and started to notice a little bit of a difference. Add to that a brief massage with the muscle roller stick I got from amazon, and my head began to feel clearer, pain was reducing and better yet, I could type without numbness and heaviness in my fingers. Then last week I went to the chiropractor finally and the relief I had was insane! The fog was lifted and I felt much better and more lucid. My legs are still very weak and going up the stairs is super taxing but I know with time this will get better in time as I have mentioned before.
All of this has led me to be able to go to New York City Comic Con starting tomorrow and cosplaying Friday and Saturday. I will be taking plenty of breaks during all days I will be attending. Setting alarms to make sure I sit down even if I feel like I can keep going so that my body can make it through all 4 days. My body isn’t in the shape I wanted it to be…strong and healthy, and I was honestly disappointed when I saw how I looked in the costume for a minute and then said, “No Ylia, wait a minute! You can walk. Some days with a cane and some days without a cane, but you can walk 10 blocks again and your dizziness has dissipated! You are blessed and you will be able to go to Comic Con. Who cares what you look like? Go out there and own it!”
This was a good pep talk with myself and this year will be even more symbolic. All the pictures I take in costume and in normie clothes will be a reminder of how far I’ve come in a matter of a few weeks. My inner strength despite the setbacks. The determination to keep going and reach my goal of attending comic con despite the complaints and breakdowns. After all, Comic Con is perfection….4 days of euphoria that recharges my emotional battery. I have always gone to Comic Con and have always been in some type of pain. Pain I have been able to get through and this year, with my body the weakest it has ever been, I will do the same. Go and have a good time. I will arrive at the Con with a huge smile on my face and make the most of the time I am able to stay. Soak in all the positive energy from all the NYCC cosplayers and attendees and take a ton of pictures so I can look back and reminisce about the happy high I felt while at the happiest place on earth for me.
I will be posting pics and videos of the con during the weekend!! Until then my phoenixes, keep fighting, give yourself some grace, and never give up!!!
Below is a brief video of past costumes I wore at Comic Con.
Mind Body Synergylia 