Trying to stay positive is tough. I know this and while I have been trying to keep it up and deal with life’s curveballs now differently than before, it’s not easy.
Life’s curveballs keep coming to test you. I have been waiting for my stool results for CDiff since last week since I’m on the PPI Voquezna which can cause you to get this much like the other PPIs. I did get the first part of the lab work a few days ago showing I was negative for some parasites and other bacteria (great). But have beenchecking every day to see if I have CDiff and yesterday, Christmas Eve I get the lab results. I am negative for everything however my calprotectin level is 162 (normal range is below 50). 162 indicates elevated intestinal inflammation. Now I still have to wait until next month’s appointment to speak with my gastroenterologist, but from what I read on numerous health sites, normally intestinal inflammation can be from a polyp which I had removed but the levels can still be elevated due to that. It can be from taking PPI’S or CDiff which it doesnt look like I have according to the toxin screening but maybe I read those wrong?. The other possible reason is IBD (Inflammatory Bowel Disease) which is an umbrella term for Ulcerative Colitis and Crohns Disease.
I’m baffled and concerned because I was diagnosed with intestinal inflammation in 2022 by another gastroenterologist and when I asked what was the cause and what can I do about it he said, “I don’t know” and showed me on my way. No further tests to figure out why I had this, no explanation as to what it could be. Nothing. Other doctors I told, who saw the results also showed no concern so I thought it was from the gastritis.
I’ve had no symptoms over the past few years that indicated I have either UC of Crohns, but I did you read can have ‘silent IBD’ and not know it. Early treatment is key to avoid complications. If left untreated, well, it’s not good.
Now again I do have to wait to see what my gastroenterologist says and take the next steps but getting the lab results on Christmas Eve is definitely not the ‘something will good will happen to me’ moment, but such is life.
This was tough, but after a bit of tapping, I was able to reset a bit and watch some Christmas shows.
Today is Christmas Day and while my mind and body are feeling the sadness and depression creeping in and I did cry a bit from frustration, I am going to shake this off and do my best to be present and enjoy this sacred day with my two rocks, my mom and brother who have always been there for me no matter what.
These results, are problem to deal with later when I have my appointment with my doctor. I refuse to let these results and the uncertainty and frustration rob me my happiness and take away from being present with my family.
I am strong and I am going to get through it all as best I can.
Until next time my phoenixes. MERRY CHRISTMAS to you!!! Be kind to yourself and never give up!
Mind Body Synergylia 